ga tau kenapa … ada semacam perasaan yg pengen keluar, lagi pengen “writing something down” lagi pengen cerita banyak ..but..but.. but.. Not everyone is here (Well, I am Mr. eh Ms. Lonely,, I have no body..huhuhuu..hiiks..hiiiksz) wah2 , finally aku merasakan all about loneliness.. it’s exactly what I have written down on my thesis…Ampun deh kena karmanya Marry Lennox…ngapain juga yah dulu repot2 nyari novel, Cuma buat sumber data analysis…tau gitu pake pengalaman pribadi aja hehee (Iam very sorry, Mrs. Pratiwi) Loneliness As Seen Through Luluz Wahyu Kusuma in Her Life heheee…No way,,, do not wanna be lonely..(What the hell is wrong with you Luz?????) heheheee …. I am just joking…
gak ada hujan, gak ada angin,,, tiba2 aja jadi kangeeen bgt ma “my everything in the past”
semua org yg pernah ada dlm hidupku (especially for him,, ehm…ehm) teman2 ku yg udah bikin hidupku jadi indah, rutinitas ku dulu yg rasanya boooring bgt,,,movie2 yg pernah aku tonton (secara I am a Movieaholic indeed hehe maksa..) moment2 saat aku jd pendengar setianya Wijaya
, or jadi anak gaul yg selalu nongkrong di MTv, jadi personelnya marching band di sekolah, or saat senangnya dapet nilai bagus waktu ulangan trus…trus apa lagi yah???Tentunya semua petualangan yg pernah aku alami bareng temen2 sepermainan, seperjuangan
(bersepeda sampai puluhan Kilometer, jadi wartawan amatiran, ngadain pesta kebun n persahabatan tiap tahun, jadi tailor baju2 Boneka Barbie) My dolls: Barbie, Molly, Panda,,, miss u…miss u…miss u all…so much…my everything in the past, Hiiks…hiiks 
Well, it’s too good to tell… it’s time to reminisce what I have been through…if I could then I would turn back the time
Right now, yeah, that is what I am exactly trying to talk about… terkadang ada semacam perasaan belum rela untuk jadi “my self” yg sekarang, iam just not ready yet to face something new in my life.Even when I was 20 (sempat nangis karena takut jadi dewasa hehee norak bgt yach) I remember writing my fear to be an adult..
(Dear diary… today is my last teen,,, tomorrow iam goin to be 20,,, iam just scared to be an adult) anyway, itu dulu lah,, rite now is much better… iam very ready to be an adult hehee (dasar over confident) in conclusion, I miss my everything in the past so.. So… so much.
--Luz--
Sidoarjo, Sept 22, 2008
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